I just wish I had the answer right now…

                                  “If the fires out baby how your gonna keep me warm.”

     Feeling a bit fragile, wishing my baby was here. I wish I wasn’t vulnerable right now…I wish a lot of things weren’t rushing through my head. I haven’t really had the time to write about this but I kind of have a problem. There’s this friend of mines, well not anymore at least I thought she was. I didn’t know that we stopped being friends, like yeah she would act different around me but she would tell me that she’s like that. I was kind of hurt when I found out because all this time she was kind of being fake to me opposed to actually telling me that she doesn’t want to be friends. Mehh I don’t know, I thought we were going to be good friends…like we clicked when we first met, I don’t know what went wrong at all. I don’t know what to do anymore. I care way to much about friends and then shit like this happen. I would like to know what I did wrong but she didn’t tell me. 

     I shouldn’t make an effort to even try. I feel like its not going to help…I feel like I should just loose everyone I have except my my close friends and my boyfriend. Speaking about my boyfriend, I wish he was here right now but hes in Maine. I hate that I wont be able to see him until Monday which will be our first month together. I really feel fragile and vulnerable right now and I cant sustain these feelings. I don’t want to cry but I feel like I have to.